It’s always wonderful when one expresses his love to the beloved, to say I love you, to embrace n kiss on the neck and sigh a wisper you mean the world to me. To be with her, never let the opportunity to not to be close to her. Not because of the attraction but because you’re too much attached. But all this is true when you are in a relationship, you’re at the sea. What about the situation when you’re in a desert? Is what you’re seeing an Oasis or a mirage? The situation is pretty tight.
The Oasis is much more beautiful than sea, which is why sometimes it’s too good to be true.
I made this absurd analogy just to indicate the depth of complication in the situation. There is love, there is trust but it doesn’t have a beginning. I know it’s difficult to find it n purge out the sense of hostility, but I hope it will work out just the way it should. All that, is left for time to reveal n when it’s time, the beginning will reveal itself.
The beginning is a long journey and the journey is trying. What should one do when he sees the beginning on the horizon but the harder you try getting there, the distance doesn’t seem to shrink. Seems like a paradox or a limbo.
I see you my love, and the love in your eyes. But it seems like the distance from the eyes to the tongue is infinite.
What I realized, is that the distance will reduce only when the beginning decides to come to me. The wait is long, the wait is terrible but that’s the only way.
I love you to the extent that I can wait for the beginning to come after my death.
It is a fact that I love myself, I don’t mean it in a selfish sense, maybe naive, but trust me I have realized it sometime back. I am in a relationship with myself. Seems absurd right? Well, it is absurd, but then every other relationship is. I don’t think most will agree with this fact, so then let’s just create a perspective.
To love yourself, you should know what love is; now this is where the hard part starts. To know what love is you need to love another person, some unknown person whom you haven’t known all your life. You have to be in love, as in truly madly deeply or some other pathetically romantic stuff. So are we in deep, true n crazy love? Very good. Now we’re ready for the ride.
The lesson starts with a break up. I leave it to your wisdom how you do it, but you need to have a broken heart, if there is something like that. Now you spend few days in grief, you may feel that I’ve had enough. Curiously, this is the time people are interested in you, but you don’t give a dime.
After a while when you gather some courage to face this love again, you’ll try your best but it may so happen that you aren’t really ready for a relationship again, probably worse if you’re crush isn’t interested. In either case you may have a second heart break. This time is pretty critical, you can either lose hope or go to the next level. Now you tend to feel desperate because it’s been a while now. This desperation turns into frustration. That’s short lived because you are about to enter a phase of self realisation. Now you might start to think that I was better off alone. And trust me you really are better off..
If that makes some sense then it’s easier to comprehend this perspective. It might seem all wrong, but there is so much room for yourself. You can actually introspect every move. You can never feel closer to yourself in any other way. The best part is you start talking to yourself, understand why you feel something, reason your behavior and others better. If there is something called the “inner peace” it’s very much achievable, that is a mighty good reason to love loving yourself.